You can't have a cat - cats have you.Few years ago, I was leaving the site for home. A young crow was in the road. I expected it to fly off (I wasn't driving fast, still on site). Didn't. I got and killed it. For several days it lay, dead, in the gutter. Looking into its dead eyes and face, I saw a remarkable resemblance to my beautiful black cat. It hurt, hard.
Since then, I have more time for crows and other animals that have a beauty in their own way.
I've stopped having cats. Hurts too much when they die.