Good day to you all. To set the scene of my predicament for you: I am a 30 year old TA PO, a trained soldier of 2 years, sent on TAB; passed with cat 1, passed Mod 2 (dispite my appalling fitness), now have my TAMB infront of me (18th-21st of November). RMAS is set for next September, with Module 3 starting for me in Feburary. I'm bricking it. I really am. I can't describe the fear of failing my TAMB, cocking RMAS, and all that. On top of that, now I have been tracked for Officer, I have missed out on trade training, and the promotions that would have brought. People I joined with are now lance jacks. The upshot of that is if it all goes pete tong, and all this expectation of success has been heaped upon me, I see no other option but to leave the TA. Not something I want to do. So how can you help dear Arrse members? Information to soothe my tortured mind, and lay my fears to rest. I would like to know what I'm letting myself in for. The TAMB: I am so very nervous about this. What can I expect do: What Physical tests are there? What are the opening tasks and opening race? what is the closing race and what tips are there for the command tasks? Anyone have any advice for the assault course? RMAS: Fitness. I am not in great shape, and know I will fail in my current form. I need to know what level to aim at. I know this seems a short cut, surely I should train until my little heart cannot take any more, and I will, but aside from the CFT and BPFA (which are only starting points), what else can I expect at sandhurst? How many days are spent out in the field, what lessons are given and what seems to be pass criteria? On an aside, what motives have driven people to become Officers? I am not clear as to my motives. I know I want to provide good leadership for the squadron, I get on well with the NCO's and men, and thankfully I'm like by the NCO's as a sig. The squadron is desparate for subbies, and if I don't pass I'll have the stigma of "didn't try hard enough" hanging over me. It's all so complicated. Thanks for any help recieved.