I have become increasingly frustrated with commissioned service in the TA, which seems to have become about pen-pushing and very little to do with command. Although I appreciate the importance of the role of the TA officer as facilitator, last year I only spent a couple of days on exercise, the rest of the time seems to be spent on interminable courses to be qualified for a role one will in all likelihood never be called upon to fulfil. Even my OC is now saying subbies should concentrate on training as watchkeepers. Serve to Lead? Anyhow. Next year my job is in all likelihood going to take me to London, and I am seriously considering resigning my commission and joining the HAC. My current mood sees this in a rose-tinted way of getting to go out and do some soldiering, with a group of switched on and motivated people. I am very proud of my commission, but at the moment I don't see how I take any enjoyment from it, or indeed a great deal of professional satisfaction. I do not see Why I should carry on just for the sake of it, when the TA has become a habit rather than something I enjoy. Would I be deeply disappointed if I took this route?