I've been wanting to join the TA for the past 2 years. I even filled out my application and went for the medical. But 3 weeks before my selection weekend I was told that I had to move out of my flat because the owners were selling up, and with my very low budget I had no luck in finding a place to move in to. The stress that it caused made me feel terrible and as if I had no time to do the selection weekend since I had to use every second I had to look for a place to live ( something that was a lot harder than I thought since I'm just out of uni and had no proof of employment. So with all the stress I decided that I couldn't do the selection weekend- a mistake really because the day before the selection weekend I managed to find a place to move into, just 3 days before I was going to be kicked out of my flat- so if I hadnt cancelled my selection I would have been able to go for it, but it seemed like the right thing to do at the time. Anyway, like I said, I have wanted to join for about 2 years now, but it s always a bit difficult, first with uni getting in the way, then everything else. It made me question whether or not the TA was a good idea since although the commitment is technically " whenever you can come for training come- minimum 27 days) basic training seemed to include a lot of training weekends that you just cannot miss. Also, since I ve had to cancel my application (actually it s the second time I ve had to cancel) I guess I ve given the wrong impression. I had wanted to do the Summer Challenge 2011, but I guess I've missed all chances for that now. But have I messed up my chances of joining completely? What should be my next step. I feel silly going to the TAC AGAIN, not in uniform AGAIN, and just hanging out AGAIN. It makes me feel like a hanger-on.