Just thought you guys could help me as my head is done in from thinking about it. Ive been an Infantry soldier in the TA for 5 years now, and served successfully on op telic 2. The TA has given me some of the best experiences of my life for which I am extremely gratefull for. I still have a burning desire and passion for the army and everything that goes with it however due to personal circumstances in my life I have not trained with my unit for the best part of 9 months. Following the break up of a relationship and the consequent demise of my buisness I found it difficult to find any motivation for anything. Now spare me the violins (its not what im here for), having found my feet again I have landed a good job with good pay. The trouble is I am reluctant to train with the TA untill i have been employed 12 months (next april) - due to politics and circumstances at work that i cant be bothered going into. I feel I would be more beneficial to get my 12 months out the way and then get back into things knowing my civillian job is secure. With my imminent disharge looming I feel like a bag of shit and cant decide what to do. Its killing me chaps......help (plus 4 para has opened up near mine and its oh soooo tempting) Any suggestions?