Mental Health

So I weren't too sure as to which forum to post this under so here we are.

This thread is just a bit of my story in the Army and after, basically how my mental health bollocksed my career up,

All of my life I had wanted to join the Army. My Uncle (Doddzy) served a decent career in 4RIFLES (2003-2012) & always had ally stories to tell when he came back from deployment, by all accounts he was a good soldier, I wanted to follow in his footsteps.

I started at ITC in May 2017, by July/August I had battles with my inner demons. I reached out to the medical team and my corporals (who served with my Uncle so were a great help).
I spent a week on the biff chit, speaking to god knows how many people. Having piss tests looking for chemical inbalances, blood tests etc. I was eventually diagnosed (and I believe incorrectly) with - Depression, Anxiety, De-personalisation, Bipolar. I was told i'd be medically downgraded and eventually medically discharged.
This completely shattered everything i'd worked for. By all accounts I was becoming a good soldier and was following my uncles footsteps. I had a meeting with the head of healthcare at ITC who told me 'if I DAOR, he will make sure the diagnosis' are taken off my medical record to ensure it doesn't mess around with any future employment'. I then started the DAOR process following his advice. After many meetings with many different bodies, I was eventually discharged through DAOR in september time.
In December that same year I tried to take my own life, probably a half arsed attempt because i'm still here thankfully, in hindsight it gave me a boot *********** to reach out again.

I was formally diagnosed with Severe Anxiety and Depression by the NHS following this and recently have been having further assessments due to episodes of paranoia and mania.

I now work as a Prison Officer and absolutely love the job, it doesn't come close to the fulfilment I got from my short time in the Army but it's a good job nonetheless.

I have twice been referred for 'veterans' councilling / group meetings etc but I have turned them down as I couldn't sit there with actual veterans such as my uncle who suffers PTSD because of what he had been through. I'd see it as being dis-respectful because by no means am I a veteran, i'm a crowbag at best. My GP and councillors say I suffer with some form of PTSD linked with how my brain developed within the Army and in short I can't switch off. Which is no good when theres not much to tune that energy in to, due to this my mind goes into overdrive, hence the mania and paranoia. It has taken me so long to ever talk about it because I always felt like I had failed, ITC made a big sing and dance about 'talking about mental health', I did, and I feel as though I was punished and pushed out for it. I never once said anything that could put myself or others in danger therefore I've no idea how they came to the conclusion I wasn't fit for duty.

Really I just wanted to tell my experience and see if anyone had been through something similar? I now have a son and have a good career in the Prison Service, I am still battling with my demons, now more than ever in fact, but having my son completely changed my perspective on things as I now have a reason to be here. Sorry to have gone on a bit but i'm on a night shift and haven't got anything better to be doing.
 
So I weren't too sure as to which forum to post this under so here we are.

This thread is just a bit of my story in the Army and after, basically how my mental health bollocksed my career up,

All of my life I had wanted to join the Army. My Uncle (Doddzy) served a decent career in 4RIFLES (2003-2012) & always had ally stories to tell when he came back from deployment, by all accounts he was a good soldier, I wanted to follow in his footsteps.

I started at ITC in May 2017, by July/August I had battles with my inner demons. I reached out to the medical team and my corporals (who served with my Uncle so were a great help).
I spent a week on the biff chit, speaking to god knows how many people. Having piss tests looking for chemical inbalances, blood tests etc. I was eventually diagnosed (and I believe incorrectly) with - Depression, Anxiety, De-personalisation, Bipolar. I was told i'd be medically downgraded and eventually medically discharged.
This completely shattered everything i'd worked for. By all accounts I was becoming a good soldier and was following my uncles footsteps. I had a meeting with the head of healthcare at ITC who told me 'if I DAOR, he will make sure the diagnosis' are taken off my medical record to ensure it doesn't mess around with any future employment'. I then started the DAOR process following his advice. After many meetings with many different bodies, I was eventually discharged through DAOR in september time.
In December that same year I tried to take my own life, probably a half arsed attempt because i'm still here thankfully, in hindsight it gave me a boot *********** to reach out again.

I was formally diagnosed with Severe Anxiety and Depression by the NHS following this and recently have been having further assessments due to episodes of paranoia and mania.

I now work as a Prison Officer and absolutely love the job, it doesn't come close to the fulfilment I got from my short time in the Army but it's a good job nonetheless.

I have twice been referred for 'veterans' councilling / group meetings etc but I have turned them down as I couldn't sit there with actual veterans such as my uncle who suffers PTSD because of what he had been through. I'd see it as being dis-respectful because by no means am I a veteran, i'm a crowbag at best. My GP and councillors say I suffer with some form of PTSD linked with how my brain developed within the Army and in short I can't switch off. Which is no good when theres not much to tune that energy in to, due to this my mind goes into overdrive, hence the mania and paranoia. It has taken me so long to ever talk about it because I always felt like I had failed, ITC made a big sing and dance about 'talking about mental health', I did, and I feel as though I was punished and pushed out for it. I never once said anything that could put myself or others in danger therefore I've no idea how they came to the conclusion I wasn't fit for duty.

Really I just wanted to tell my experience and see if anyone had been through something similar? I now have a son and have a good career in the Prison Service, I am still battling with my demons, now more than ever in fact, but having my son completely changed my perspective on things as I now have a reason to be here. Sorry to have gone on a bit but i'm on a night shift and haven't got anything better to be doing.
Sounds like you have it sorted from a hard road.
Good luck!
 

Richie1305

Clanker
I'm getting there, a lot of good blokes have it worse off than me.
We are all affected in different ways mate so your struggle is just as hard as any others pal. Time served means nothing, its what you experienced so you are a veteran same as the rest of us mate. Hope things work out for you mate and keep us posted on your progress. if you need any advice there are a lot of very experienced guys on here so ask away and I'm sure someone here will point you in the right direction.

Good luck with it all pal
 
Hi guy I just wanted to get some advice please, basically I served in the British army for 4 years and then I left in 2018, then I went through a divorce with my ex-wife in 2020 and I went to my GP because I was depressed for a couple of weeks and I was prescribed medication which I did not take, will this affect me rejoining the army as it only lasted a couple of weeks and my life now it's going really good

thank you.
 
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Hi guy I just wanted to get some advice please, basically I served in the British army for 4 years and then I left in 2018, then I went through a divorce with my ex-wife in 2020 and I went to my GP because I was depressed for a couple of weeks and I was prescribed medication which I did not take, will this affect me rejoining the army as it only lasted a couple of weeks and my life now it's going really good

thank you.
Why did you not take the prescribed meds? I took antidepressants for six months and they helped greatly. They made highs less high, the lows less low and the transition between the two less severe. This allowed me to identify and deal with what was causing the depression. There are other threads regarding how a diagnosis of depression affects (re)enlistment.
When I joined the police I expected great problems with the depression history. But the examining doctor was “oh, you were unwell but got better, any problems since?, no?, good”. He was more concerned about the strange noises my knees make.
 

Awol

LE
Hi guy I just wanted to get some advice please, basically I served in the British army for 4 years and then I left in 2018, then I went through a divorce with my ex-wife in 2020 and I went to my GP because I was depressed for a couple of weeks and I was prescribed medication which I did not take, will this affect me rejoining the army as it only lasted a couple of weeks and my life now it's going really good

thank you.
I think the term is ‘episodic’, ie your life turned to shit because of a single traumatic incident that left you in bits, but you got over it. It can happen to anyone and provided you have dealt with it and put it behind you, it shouldn’t be held against you.

Note... I’m in no way qualified in these things, so please don’t base the rest of your life on this post.
 

964ST

LE
Mental health, is and always will be a difficult area!
My Nephew took his own life last year
He was under treatment, I hoped that while we mourned my Mother who suffered from terminal cancer and died, that I could connect with him and in my own hilarious way we had a dam good wake, and I thought we had turned him around.
Sometimes there is nothing you can do:(
 

Richie1305

Clanker
Hi guy I just wanted to get some advice please, basically I served in the British army for 4 years and then I left in 2018, then I went through a divorce with my ex-wife in 2020 and I went to my GP because I was depressed for a couple of weeks and I was prescribed medication which I did not take, will this affect me rejoining the army as it only lasted a couple of weeks and my life now it's going really good

thank you.
Sorry to not be able to comment on this one mate I've never heard of this situation with re joining etc. I would assume if your now ok and it was only a small amount of time it shouldn't be an issue but don't quote me on that. All you can do is try and see mate but hope it works out for you
 
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I guarantee you will have no more worries about blocked drains.

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