Bit deep for a first post but I was wondering how people are feeling post op tours? I've been back from TELIC two years and although settled back into home life and job with no real problems save for the odd bad dream and some emotional chats with mates I was out there with. However the latest news from TELIC and HERRIC coupled with the fact that some of the guys I did my TELIC with are going back has put me in a rather funny frame of mind. I'm not talking PTSD here, rather a sense that I'm letting the guys down ( because I can't go, work, family etc ) and my feelings about what happened on my tour are changing. I'm not talking PTSD here just more of a gradual shift in frame of mind, attitude to TA and the knowledge that TELIC has become a sunny version of BANNER with a permanent invite extended to all members of TA. I feel such divided loyalties between the fun and camaradie of my unit and the fact that they will be looking for volunteers for TELIC and HERRICK soon. Does anyone else feel the same?