I have been an Army Cadet for 4 years, spent hours and hours researching the Army, this was the life for me, i knew it was. I passed with flying colours my selection, interview, barb, physical but ahhhh, my Medical!! I ******* Failed it due to being very slightly Autistic which i haven't had problems with since i was in primary school. Now this has been my dream job since i can remember, i used to think about it all the time, now i am not eligible to apply, my world has come crashing down. Im feeling on such a low urge of life, i have lost all self esteem, and motivation this was the only thing i ever wanted to do, i can't think what i want to do now, at all! And please, no sarcastic banter this time, im serious, anyone else been in this situation? What should i do? I think i would feel better off not even being alive anymore, yeah a strong statement for it only being the army but it was what i wanted to do, the only thing.