Right, I left Her Maj's finest seven years age and decided that I'd never break into a sweat again, I was usually a biff in the Army and hated the whole phyzz thing. Anyway, we have been walking in the dales recently as a family, very relaxing and all that. Yesterday I fancied a walk in the hills and as everyone was busy I ended up on a mountain on my own except for our dog, thats when the trouble started.......... I parked up the car, sorted my kit out and started walking up the nearest hill and within minutes I was sweating like a rapist and breathing out my arrse. Without realising it I was tabbing up the hill and the worrying thing about it was that I was enjoying it. Don't get me wrong, I was a phyzz biff seven years ago and have done virtually nothing physical since so I don't think I was exactly flying up the hill but I was leaving the civvies standing and the dog was looking at me funny. Anyway, fourty minutes later I arrive at the trig point (to the horror of the civvies) looking like a bag of sh*t, sweat patches like plates and eyes like saucers, I was breathing like darth vader, I punched the air and shouted yesssss! It was a brilliant adrenalin rush and I can't wait to do it again, but the thing is I think I'm a walt, a ex-army walt. The thing is that although I can impress the civvies/wife/kids etc with my knowledge and 'tabbing' abilities I dread the day a 'proper' soldier ever questions my military career. I was in the Army when it was a German drinking club and the closest to action I ever got was Bosnia and Cyprus during GW1. In my defence I left the RLC in 2000 so wasn't running away from any conflicts but when I see what the guys are experiencing now I feel like a complete fraud. Anyone else feel like that?