Hi and sorry to bother you guys and gals Iâm just trying to figure out a few things about PTSD and as most google searches seem to point to military forums I thought this might be a good place to ask for a little advice if thatâs ok. A few years ago in a civvy job i was involved in a scuffle with a villan who decided to pull a knife on me. I struggled for about about five mins on the floor of a car park with this fellow trying to stab me with one of those kitchen carving knife jobs you can get from any supermarket. This guy was a grade 'A' druggie who wasn't really interested in getting away from me, more in ending my life. Eventually I managed to turn the bloke onto his front and disarm him with a little help from a passer by and that was that. After he was arrested and charged I spent many a day dwelling on what i could or should have done to change things. I know i didnât get injured but it was out of luck more than training of which i had some. After that i became very withdrawn and my personal life suffered as a result with the lowest of the low coming when i quit the job i felt i was no longer up to. So I went into a different line of work and all was well for a while until i started feeling a little different in how i reacted to situations. Its culminated into what i am now which is pretty much a hermit. I rarely venture out of the door (once a week if that) and am terrible to be around if Iâm with anyone outside. I'm sprung like a coiled spring, tetchy, jumpy and feel quite angry to anyone who so much as bumps into me. God forbid if some poor soul happens to push in to a line Iâm in. It doesnât sound much but its changed my whole life and how i live it, and i also rarely sleep which is why Iâm posting this at 2am. Anyhow, a few months ago i decided to visit the docs and get some help mainly at the request of my family, the usual anti depressants we're dished out which havenât been much help tbh. I've also attended 12 weeks of counselling which has helped me understand my anger, moods etc but hasnât really helped me cope with it. I am aware people cant cure me with words but if anyone knows of or is aware of any support for people suffering from such a thing Iâd be more than happy to know. Even advice/pointing in the right direction for coping with anger would be handy. To be honest just finding a forum with like minded people would be a form of stress relief for me i think...i cant explain why but talking about it seems to help. Sadly most of the people i talk to just nod and cant really understand which frustrates me no end. I know Iâm a civvy, what i went through hardly constitutes the same PTSD that results from combat stress but any words of advice or pointing in a direction will be gratefully received. Many thanks Swift. EDIT: Fixed typo's which were frequent doh!