I've been a lurker and occassional poster on here for a good few years now. Since there's plenty of people here who are either depressed, PTSD or both but are/were active men and women I was hoping for your perspecive. Both younger sisters served in the RAF and I really wanted to join the army. Couldn't join TA before/during army as recovering from ME. Found out about the Intelligence Corp at uni and fell in love with it but got scuppered after a 'wee' bout of depression snowballed into a breakdown. Realising that this would probably scupper my chances of getting clearance for either the military or civil service, I was doing much better and took a tefl job in Asia which was great but ended up having another breakdown. Back in Blighty 9 months and officially dole scum. While I'm waiting to hit on the magic combination of meds, my brain has the intellectual ability of a house brick and my social skills when I'm anxious are appalling. But my gp sent me on a gym referral which is getting me pretty fit and even out running and swimming once or twice a week despite a lack of any seratonin high. Earliest I'll be healthy enough to cope with a job looks like 3-6 months (I've never been so keen to go to work!) Its likely I'm going to be on anti-depressants and/or mood stabilisers for years. I still carry a torch for the armed forces but I don't think I can even be an adult leader at cadets as I wouldn't get a firearms licence. And I think it would prevent me from joining the Police. I'd like something that isn't desk bound, travelling around a bit every day, meeting the public, developing specialist knowledge, where good physical fitness is an asset. My skill set is in teaching and administration. No problem doing a speech to 1000 or one-to-one (when I was well). Decent IT skills but getting rusty. Used to write very well (again, lack of practice lately). My dream army jobs would have been Intel Op (with or without a language), dog handler or going commissioned as an Education Officer. Any ideas? Or anything else I won't be able to do? It doesn't have to be a 'girly' job either.