4 years ago, when i was only 14 (!) i have on my medical records that i did partake inone episode of self harm. This is true, and came just after my younger brother was diagnosed autistic and my family was under a lot of pressure, as the result of getting drunk for the first time. 4 years on and a month ago i was prescribed 4 weeks worth of 20mg citralopram, an anti-depressant. I only took this for a week before my GP deemed that I was perfectly fine, and that my new regime of exercise in light of my army application and the new focus i had on my life have left me more mentally stable and focused than many other people she had filled in medical forms for. Although these tablets take 3 - 4 weeks to actually take any effect the doctor said i was in such a good mental state that there was no point carrying them on. In the time between the two incidents i have suffered the loss of a long term relationship, a job, i had quit another job due to bullying, my other brother got diagnosed as autistic, my cieling fell in, my grandma broke her hip, my mam had another baby, my ex boyfriend sent me abusive messages via text and the internet, my dad who abandoned us when i was three got in touch and i had an abortion. Through all of this I haven't self harmed, and was only prescribed the anti depressants because i wasn;t sleeping properly. How badly will this affect my application? I got 77 in my BARB test and I have good GCSEs, I am studying for my Maths Mechanics and Further Maths A Levels at the minute. Will I be deffered or just plain out refused?